Merry Christmas!

Started christmas eve at the park with a night sesh and the best dudes there is. Celebrated with my mom, stepdad and brother today so was so stuffed with christmas food when I got there. Tomorrow it's an early rise cause my niece is turning 7 so have to head over there and then I'll go home to Kalles brother to celebrate with him and his family (starting to see why people think we are together haha.. but we're not, just to be clear). 

Merry christmas and hope you get drunk as fuuuuck!

xx

sunday, funday.. no, chillday.

woke up at around 2 (late I know) and went almost straight to the park. after a few hours of hang around me, Kalle, Kingsley and Rusty went to ölfiket so the boys could get some sunday beers. At ölfiket I met up with my longtime friend Yo-Naa who I hadn't seen in almost 2 years. after dropping the boys off me and Yo went to my place for some catching up. At around 10 I drove Yo home and picked up Lukas and went to Jim and Kalles place for a movie or two. Well there I decided to go over to BK to see what he was up to and ended up watching a movie there instead. I picked up Lukas on the way home and dropped him off and now I'm ready for a shower and then falling a sleep to a movie on the couch. Tomorrow the endless line off christmas celebrations will begin!!

above you see probably one of the best facerapes ever. Big ups for that one ekin!

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driving until I'm out of gas, then I'll start walking.

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the prettiest christmas tree ever.

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woah I'm bad at this.

so, what have I been up to lately? 

pretty much same old same old. went for a skatesession with kalle, movie with bk and then a beer at ölfiket with kingsley and kalle. now I'm back home for some sleep, tomorrow I'll hang with my laughtersmurf (aka. Anira).

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night fun.

Me, Kalle, Jim and Kingsley decided to do a nightsesh today at park. But instead we ended off turning all the lights off and started playing hide and seek instead. It felt like we were back in middle school again haha (except I didn't know any off these guys back then... and also that it was 1 am). At 3 we decided to head back and now I'm chilling on the couch while Kingsley is making music, Jim is cooking and Kalle is browsing the web. Soon time for the latest episode of Family Guy then SLEEP. 

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Reunion, movies, work and blonde highlights.

Friday: started working at 9.30. was feeling quite sick so at around 5 Simon drove me to Kalle and Jim place so I could sleep for an hour or two. Finished work at around 11 so I decided (and asked) to stay at Kalle and Jims place for the night since they live so much closer to the park and I had to be back at work at 9. The boys decided to go out and I went straight to bed. At 4 I woke up when the boys came home with a bunch of people for an afterparty. At 8 in the morning I decided to call in sick, take the buss home and get some much needed sleep.

Saturday: Woke up at 4 in the afternoon and went straight to watch tve competition. Me, Anira and Sarah went to grab a beer at ölfiket before heading to the after/pre-party at magasinet. Had the nicest buffé and watched everyone getting drunker and drunker. Me and Anira decided to head into town and got joined by Simon (stockholm), Magnus (gothenburg) and Axel (stockholm?). After a few hours on town Simon went back to the hotel, Axel was looong gone and both Anira and Magnus were shitfaced. I drove Magnus back to the ones he were staying at and crashed on Aniras couch.

Sunday: Got the park for a meeting and some cleaning. Really happy when I walked in, feeling great, and seeing everyone's "hangover misary". After that I stopped by to check on Anira before heading back home.

Monday: Worked all afternoon. After I finshed off me, Kalle, Kingsley and Jim stopped by MAXI. Bought some sweets and watched movies. I crashed on their couch, as usual.

Tuesday: Slept until Kalle got back from his meeting then we went to the park so he could skate some before going to work. After I dropped him off at home I met up with Sara, Sarah and Joffa for some chat and walk around town. I also stopped by to say hello to Johanna. After I finished off work I went back to Jim and Kalles place to color mine, Kingsleys and Jims hair. We all got some blonde highlights (didn't work that well on me though ao I have to re-do it tomorrow).

Tomorrow I have alot of things to get done... Clean the car, my room, color my hair, work-out, meet up Simon for taning, and meet up Johanna for a muskvälk. Looking forward to it!

xx

REUNION AND GNARLY JOE'S SK8SHOP.

Today is grand opening of Gnarly Joe's Sk8shop (sk8shop.se) and the begining of REUNION SKATECOMP. I will be working all day today and tomorrow as well. Going to be sort of a zombie 'cause I've been sleeping so bad all week. Last night I first went Gocarting (again) with Kalle and Kingsley. So much fun! then we skated until late, hanged out for a bit then we met up with Jim, Fatos and BK for a beer at ölfiket. The boys stayed up while I decided to go to bed. So now, me and Kalle are waiting for Simon to get here and then I'm off to work! 

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chillin. (earlier today)

just chillin at Jim and Kalles place, waitinf for Joffa to get into town then we'll grab some sushi. the boys are still snoring away so I'm just watching some youtube videos. spent the entire day yesterday at the indoor park with kalle, jim and kingsley. did a spontanious trip up to the gokart track.. guess who won? FUCK YEAH!!!

today I'll just colour my hair, skate some and the early to bed. two long work days infront of me, skateboard comp. come on down!

xx

ooooh snappp

I've been busy. byyyyeee

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it's sneaking up again...

that annoying feeling. that uncomfortable, tingeling feeling in my entire body. when I just feel like crying but I can't even do that. It's just get harder and harder to breath for every minute that goes by. when I just wanna go away and at the same time just wanna stay home. when I just wanna do something, anything, but still just stay in bed and stare at the wall (or preferably a lit candle). when I feel like I have noone that actually cares about me, but so many that I care, maybe too much, about. when everything is right but still so wrong. when I can't tell if I'm angry, sad, happy, annoyed, tired. when I feel nothing, and everything at the exact same time.

haven't felt this feeling in over 5 months now. I don't wanna go back to that again. I can't handle going back to that again. I know I litteraly CAN'T go through that again.

I'm not an easily scared person in general, but this... I'm terrified. 

kalle the shiettt

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middle of the night.

can't sleep (as usual) so decided to do an up-all-nighty sort of thing. everything is packed so tomorrow morning I'm heading back to Halmstad. start working at 5 but have som clothes to get and some other things to fix before that so. anywayyyyy, these pants man, modt comfortable pair of pants you could ever find. the funny thing I found these at h&m for only 15 crowns. hoodie from sessions, beenie from analog/junkyard, tee (underneath) junkyard xxxy and lace-belt from clwr/7913.

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sippin' on some beer!

decided to take the train up to gothenburg today. heading straight out on town to meet up some friends! take every chance I can to get away from halmstad! will probably stay up there (still on the train) until tuesday! (but as usual I'll probably go home earlier haha). so now I'm sipping on a beer on the really lovely, and always late, train. ttyl!

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You.

You are sooo sweet and kind. Almost too kind, but you know that. You say you will text me, and you actually do. You love to hug. You care about others way too much. You are smart and actually prioritize the important things. You speak french. You wake me up with a hug and kiss my forehead.

You are everything that every girl wants. But not what every girl deserves. You are way too good for me. We both know that. So it actually hurts a bit more than it should but... bye.

xx

halloween!

met up with anira to shop some shoes and then we both went to her place to get ready for the halloween party. I decided to go as a girl, hehe. won 6 beers for best costume...

after spending some time at Magasinet, a really cool newly opened place just outside of town we decided to hit town for real. so now my feet are sore as fuck and I'm feeling really sick 'cause I'm so tired. Really good night together with Stefan, Anira, Sarah, Välling, Joffa, Danne, Philip, Frida, Simon, Ekin, Jim, Emil, Macke, Felipe, Lisa and so on...

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too busy.

been looking for work, hanged out with friends, been in gothenburg for a few days and just taking it easy I guess. So today is Filles Friday and I'm just chillin' at the park. thinkin about heading off to Vällings moving-in party. yeah I think I'll do that... will post some photos later. byyyyeeee

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how come? I'll tell you why.

I'm sick off people asking stupid ass questions as: "why do you even talk to him?", "why can't you just let him go?", he's not your friend, you know that right?", " why even bother?". so now, I'll tell you why.

first off, I'm the one who was the asshole. I'm the one who fucked shit up. over and over and over again. second of all, I do believe in forgiving people. friendship is the most important thing for me and even though I know that the person won't always be there for me, I'll always be there for him/her. third and last, if you think about it, he's not the only one I have forgiven, always been there for and so on. so why is it that you get so mad about me forgiving him, when I've done the exact same thing for you, several times before as well?

I've learned my lesson. I think I can finally call myself "healthy" again. And it's not all about him. It' all about YOU, my friends, and I just consider him to be one of you.

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it's monday.

so today is monday. been quite agood day so far. was supposed to go to work a little today but had to help joffa a little bit so skipped it today. so hanged out with her and daniel a little bit, then i visited sara at carlings, went for a walk with lisa and harley, met johganna at the busstop and now I'm at the park waiting for sarah to join me. not working here today though but just like to be here and chill I guess.

had a pretty awesome week back home. got tattoed by nicke this monday. met up with kolle and hanged out with him and his friend alexander (åke). dropped them off at the studio and said hi to ekin real quick and then I went and picked up kalle and went to park. been hanging out with friends practically all week. me, kalle, jaffa and sara went to the quiz at james last wednesday and me and kalle ended up at morfars until it closed for the day. last friday emelie came for a visit and joined me for a pre-party at kalle and jim's place. didn't drink anything. me and emelie decided to go home quite early. we slept quite long on saturday and hanged here at the park before dropping lisa off at her pre-party thingy and then we joined kalle and the others at his place for "some" drinking. got super wasted but had a really fun night out. me, emelie, kalle and some other guys who are friends of kalle went back to his place for an after party. yesterday we all just chilled at kalles place before I dropped emelie off at the trainstation and then I met up with felipe for som max food then I went straight to bed. nice weekenndddddd.

xx

just to make mli happy.

happy now biaatch?

xx

home for real.

got home at around 12 today. johanna and mikaela came over with chocolate, julmust and some much needed hugs. so I unpacked wverything then I coloured and cut my hair real quick before heading into town and meeting up with sara and we tried to surprise joffa. kind of failed but joffa brought some coffe and pie so we sat down at the floor of carlings and talked and ate. people that walked gave us some strange looks. but I suggested that was due to that we played one direction haha. 1D ❤️

but yeah, the I went to have dinner with my mom, stepdad and brother. great day. sort of. tomorrow I'm off quite early to get tattooed and hopefully be able to skate but we'll see what the weather will be. 

peace out!

xx

love my new shirt from rip curl.

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