woah I'm bad at this.

so, what have I been up to lately? 

pretty much same old same old. went for a skatesession with kalle, movie with bk and then a beer at ölfiket with kingsley and kalle. now I'm back home for some sleep, tomorrow I'll hang with my laughtersmurf (aka. Anira).

xx

night fun.

Me, Kalle, Jim and Kingsley decided to do a nightsesh today at park. But instead we ended off turning all the lights off and started playing hide and seek instead. It felt like we were back in middle school again haha (except I didn't know any off these guys back then... and also that it was 1 am). At 3 we decided to head back and now I'm chilling on the couch while Kingsley is making music, Jim is cooking and Kalle is browsing the web. Soon time for the latest episode of Family Guy then SLEEP. 

xx

Reunion, movies, work and blonde highlights.

Friday: started working at 9.30. was feeling quite sick so at around 5 Simon drove me to Kalle and Jim place so I could sleep for an hour or two. Finished work at around 11 so I decided (and asked) to stay at Kalle and Jims place for the night since they live so much closer to the park and I had to be back at work at 9. The boys decided to go out and I went straight to bed. At 4 I woke up when the boys came home with a bunch of people for an afterparty. At 8 in the morning I decided to call in sick, take the buss home and get some much needed sleep.

Saturday: Woke up at 4 in the afternoon and went straight to watch tve competition. Me, Anira and Sarah went to grab a beer at ölfiket before heading to the after/pre-party at magasinet. Had the nicest buffé and watched everyone getting drunker and drunker. Me and Anira decided to head into town and got joined by Simon (stockholm), Magnus (gothenburg) and Axel (stockholm?). After a few hours on town Simon went back to the hotel, Axel was looong gone and both Anira and Magnus were shitfaced. I drove Magnus back to the ones he were staying at and crashed on Aniras couch.

Sunday: Got the park for a meeting and some cleaning. Really happy when I walked in, feeling great, and seeing everyone's "hangover misary". After that I stopped by to check on Anira before heading back home.

Monday: Worked all afternoon. After I finshed off me, Kalle, Kingsley and Jim stopped by MAXI. Bought some sweets and watched movies. I crashed on their couch, as usual.

Tuesday: Slept until Kalle got back from his meeting then we went to the park so he could skate some before going to work. After I dropped him off at home I met up with Sara, Sarah and Joffa for some chat and walk around town. I also stopped by to say hello to Johanna. After I finished off work I went back to Jim and Kalles place to color mine, Kingsleys and Jims hair. We all got some blonde highlights (didn't work that well on me though ao I have to re-do it tomorrow).

Tomorrow I have alot of things to get done... Clean the car, my room, color my hair, work-out, meet up Simon for taning, and meet up Johanna for a muskvälk. Looking forward to it!

xx

REUNION AND GNARLY JOE'S SK8SHOP.

Today is grand opening of Gnarly Joe's Sk8shop (sk8shop.se) and the begining of REUNION SKATECOMP. I will be working all day today and tomorrow as well. Going to be sort of a zombie 'cause I've been sleeping so bad all week. Last night I first went Gocarting (again) with Kalle and Kingsley. So much fun! then we skated until late, hanged out for a bit then we met up with Jim, Fatos and BK for a beer at ölfiket. The boys stayed up while I decided to go to bed. So now, me and Kalle are waiting for Simon to get here and then I'm off to work! 

xx

chillin. (earlier today)

just chillin at Jim and Kalles place, waitinf for Joffa to get into town then we'll grab some sushi. the boys are still snoring away so I'm just watching some youtube videos. spent the entire day yesterday at the indoor park with kalle, jim and kingsley. did a spontanious trip up to the gokart track.. guess who won? FUCK YEAH!!!

today I'll just colour my hair, skate some and the early to bed. two long work days infront of me, skateboard comp. come on down!

xx

ooooh snappp

I've been busy. byyyyeee

xx

it's sneaking up again...

that annoying feeling. that uncomfortable, tingeling feeling in my entire body. when I just feel like crying but I can't even do that. It's just get harder and harder to breath for every minute that goes by. when I just wanna go away and at the same time just wanna stay home. when I just wanna do something, anything, but still just stay in bed and stare at the wall (or preferably a lit candle). when I feel like I have noone that actually cares about me, but so many that I care, maybe too much, about. when everything is right but still so wrong. when I can't tell if I'm angry, sad, happy, annoyed, tired. when I feel nothing, and everything at the exact same time.

haven't felt this feeling in over 5 months now. I don't wanna go back to that again. I can't handle going back to that again. I know I litteraly CAN'T go through that again.

I'm not an easily scared person in general, but this... I'm terrified. 

kalle the shiettt

xx

middle of the night.

can't sleep (as usual) so decided to do an up-all-nighty sort of thing. everything is packed so tomorrow morning I'm heading back to Halmstad. start working at 5 but have som clothes to get and some other things to fix before that so. anywayyyyy, these pants man, modt comfortable pair of pants you could ever find. the funny thing I found these at h&m for only 15 crowns. hoodie from sessions, beenie from analog/junkyard, tee (underneath) junkyard xxxy and lace-belt from clwr/7913.

xx

sippin' on some beer!

decided to take the train up to gothenburg today. heading straight out on town to meet up some friends! take every chance I can to get away from halmstad! will probably stay up there (still on the train) until tuesday! (but as usual I'll probably go home earlier haha). so now I'm sipping on a beer on the really lovely, and always late, train. ttyl!

xx

You.

You are sooo sweet and kind. Almost too kind, but you know that. You say you will text me, and you actually do. You love to hug. You care about others way too much. You are smart and actually prioritize the important things. You speak french. You wake me up with a hug and kiss my forehead.

You are everything that every girl wants. But not what every girl deserves. You are way too good for me. We both know that. So it actually hurts a bit more than it should but... bye.

xx

halloween!

met up with anira to shop some shoes and then we both went to her place to get ready for the halloween party. I decided to go as a girl, hehe. won 6 beers for best costume...

after spending some time at Magasinet, a really cool newly opened place just outside of town we decided to hit town for real. so now my feet are sore as fuck and I'm feeling really sick 'cause I'm so tired. Really good night together with Stefan, Anira, Sarah, Välling, Joffa, Danne, Philip, Frida, Simon, Ekin, Jim, Emil, Macke, Felipe, Lisa and so on...

xx

too busy.

been looking for work, hanged out with friends, been in gothenburg for a few days and just taking it easy I guess. So today is Filles Friday and I'm just chillin' at the park. thinkin about heading off to Vällings moving-in party. yeah I think I'll do that... will post some photos later. byyyyeeee

xx