actually don't know anything at the moment.

Everything feels so extremely weird for me right now. 

I don't want to, but at the same time it's all I want. I don't have to, but I sort of need it. I can't do it, or that's what I tell myself anyway because somewhere in the back of my head, I know I can. I'm crazy happy about how everything is right now, but still so crazy upset. Nothing is right, nothing is wrong. 

I'm confused. 

 

xx